The service was held at Sunset Gardens Cemetery. When Ryan and I were deciding where to lay our sweet little girl, we knew that we wanted to put her somewhere pretty, somewhere we could go often and where we could feel the peace of the Spirit. We looked at a couple of places, and when I saw Sunset Gardens, I felt like this is where I wanted my baby girl to be. It has a beautiful view of the mountains and across the way, there is a statue of our Savior. The cemetery has a baby area that is separated from the rest of the cemetery by trees, which I absolutely love. I love having an area specifically for children, so all those children can be together. Something about that thought brings me peace. It was the perfect spot for Olivia.
We had a short family gathering before the graveside service where we were able to say goodbye one last time to our precious daughter. She looked so beautiful, even then. She was wrapped in the quilt that I had made for her-or half of it, rather. Half for her and half for me to hold and remember her by. I was glad I made that quilt for her so she could have a little piece of me forever. My sister's husband, Dave, made a slide show of the pictures from the hospital of Olivia that played during the family gathering. I loved looking at those pictures and remembering the time we had with our daughter. My dad ended the gathering with a family prayer and then we headed to the graveside for the service.
My dad and Ryan's dad carried the casket to the grave site. Our Bishop conducted the services. Ryan's Grandpa gave the opening prayer and then Ryan's dad said a few words about faith and the priesthood. His words definitely brought the Spirit and made me so grateful for the knowledge of the gospel and that families are eternal. Our sister-in-law Brooke and her family sang a beautiful mix of primary songs. When they began singing Families Can be Together Forever I felt the spirit very strongly. I know that because of the Savior, nothing can separate me from Olivia. She will always be mine and that is a great comfort. Following the singing, Ryan said a few words. We knew it would be hard for him to talk at that point, but we did not want to have this great service for Olivia and then not even let people get to know her a little bit. Ryan talked about our adventures with Olivia and her short life on Earth with us. From the uncertain pregnancy to the day we finally got to meet her, we were guided by God to make decisions that would be best for her. She was truly a Child of our Heavenly Father who we were privileged to spend those 37 hours with. Ryan finished the service with the dedicatory prayer, dedicating that spot of ground as a sacred place for our little girl.
There were definitely times that made me sad, but more than anything, the service was very uplifting. It provided the opportunity for each person to feel of the Spirit and gain a stronger testimony of the great eternal Plan of Happiness, for that is what Olivia taught me, among many others: That God's Plan of Happiness is the called such because it brings peace, hope, and that happiness he promises in times that seem impossible to bear.
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ReplyDeleteThat was a very special and touching post. I wish I could've been there to support you. You are amazing and an incredible example to all. The Savior loves us and we will be with our loved ones again, forever :) (Sorry, the wasatch bagel was someone that was previously logged on to chris' email and it popped up saying they wrote that. weird)
ReplyDeleteJust read this as soon as I got into work this morning, and I was crying my eyes out, and the auditor knocked on my door to ask a question. I lied and told her that I had major allergies this morning. Don't judge me.
ReplyDeleteIn other news, I love you guys, and I love Olivia.
And I'm sorry I wore flip flops to the funeral. My pregnant lady feet don't fit so well into my heels right now. Also, I think I subconsciously wanted to bring a little taste of the beach to Olivia.
I am bawling right now. Thank you so much for your strong testimony at such a trying time. I can not imagine the feelings that you are going through at this time. What a possitive attitude that you have. What an inspiration. She is a very special daughter of God. I love the pictures of your family. THey are precious.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I hope you don't mind that I blog stock you! :)
Oh my goodness.. I'm crying my eyes out!
ReplyDeleteI love you! I wish I could have met her and held her.. and I wish we could have been there to support you and Ryan during your loss and at her sweet funeral.
I have learned so much about Heavenly Father and the Plan of Salvation over the last few months. It's funny how the hardest and most unbearable trials are sometimes the very thing that bring you to the sweetest and strongest testimonies. I can definately feel your testimony come through in you writing. Lots of love & hugs.
This was amazing post, i cried and cried! I am so inspired by you two. Wish I could have met her. Praying for you all the time. Much love
ReplyDeleteWhat a poignant testimony of the plan of salvation. Thank you so much for sharing such tender and personal feelings. You are loved! You and Ryan continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI love you guys so much! My testimony of the Plan of Salvation is much stronger because of Olivia and your strong testimony through it all. Can't wait to see you again!
ReplyDeleteyou both are amazing! I am so grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and the Plan of Salvation! I love you both! Thank you for your strength!!! :)
ReplyDeleteThe plan of salvation amazing and so are you. Love you!
ReplyDeleteWE learned about Job in the Bible today. And I couldn't help but think of you and Ryan. He didn't get all bitter and think, "Why me? What's the Deal? This is too much to handle." Yet when it was too much to handle, truly unbearable, he had faith in his Heavenly Father throughout all of it, and trusted that God loved him and that He does have an Eternal Plan of Happiness. Sound familiar? This is you in a nutshell! Thinking of your strength just brought that home hard to me. I admire how you have this testimony when it's probably hardest to keep and when it really counts. It makes me so grateful that you know what you know, and trust Heavenly Father like you do. I love you!!! I look forward to meeting Olivia one day:) I'm just glad that Heavenly Father is watching out for you guys. Okay, I'll stop. But thank you for sharing your incredible faith with us:)
ReplyDeletethis post is beautiful. you are so strong! I love you! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing the details with us. That sounds like a beautiful service and I continue to be amazed by your faith and strength. You are in our thoughts and prayers always.
ReplyDeleteYour words, beautiful. Your strength, amazing. We think about you daily.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you found a beautiful spot for your daughter and that through the quilt you have a piece of each other to hold onto until you are reunited. I know that life doesn't quite come with a straight map and smooth roads, and I think that in our real trials, if we look to Christ as you have done, we can somehow continue on. I ache that you only had 37 hours with her. Just think of the joy that awaits you someday. Choking through my tears, I better stop. I don't even know what to say except that you are getting emotional hugs from Arizona. It looks like a beautiful ceremony though and I hope that these next few months will be bearable.
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